Have i not already mentioned that i am an absolutely HORRIBLE SELFISH person?

People! I know that and you dont have to tell me. Because when you do, it breaks my heart even more.

TELLING me wouldnt solve a thing. It will just devastate me even more so.

"and who do you think you are? Running round leaving scars?"

Instead DO something about it. Ask. Ask me. Reach out to me. Ask me things like, "Is anything the matter? Is the situation making you feel uncomfortable?" and have an open mind when im answering instead of trying to STEER my mind to YOUR direction to make me see YOUR way. This then doesnt make ME the horrible person.

But i know i am. I appear ungrateful for so many things that happen to me and all the things my friends do for me. I may not SAY it, but i sure am utterly grateful. It doesnt necessarily come out from my mouth but i tend to portray it in OTHER different ways.

Just dont you judge my different ways and condemn me.

Dont.

Please.